Fast day. Beginning of the week. Time to put my thoughts together about what I want for this week.
I want more me time, to spend with God.
I want to read the bible more. So, today I am going to dig out my 365 day bible, and even though its July, I must not let that put me off because part of me says you have to start it from the beginning first.
I want to pray more.
Today I ask that the words of my mouth and the mediations of my heart, be pleasing to you oh Lord, my rock and my redeemer.( ps. 19.14)
I ask that my eye's be continually drawn to You today and not to the rumbles of my tummy.
Looking back at my journal I notice that one of my recent Monday prayers( 20 June) is: Teach me how to speak kindly to my family. I have noticed that I have a harsh tone with them when I am displeased.
I can see a difference. I am quicker to change my tone when I catch myself talking this way with my kids. I still have a long way to go with my husband. As we both work together, a lot of my grumbling is over work, and the way I talk makes it seem if its his fault. Apparently I also pull my mouth. I am grateful that he is pointing it out, even though "in the moment" I am not. Its not easy to change a habit. Richard Foster (celebration of discipline) says the purpose of prayer is to be continually transformed into the image of God. I love that saying. For me its comforting to know that its a process.
One of the aims of my Monday fast is to pray for our business. This is an area that we should all continually bathing with the Holy Spirit, especially in these economic times. Its a struggle to hand it over to the Lord as its an area that is very much about me. How hard I work, What I am trying to do and succeed. I, I, I.I hold tightly onto it, and thus hold onto all the worries that go with being self employed.
God says we are to" cast your burdens onto Him, and He will sustain you". ( ps 55.22)
Lyrics Sally De Ford Church Music Contest: Anthem division--Award of Distinction 2005 (version with organ).
Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will make it light
Come unto him, ye heavy laden; find your rest in Christ
Bring him your sorrows, all your grief
Lay every weakness at his feet
He will sustain you, give you peace
And lead you into life
Cast your burden on the Lord and he will heal your soul
Place on his altar all your sin and he will bear its toll
Bring him your blindness born of pride
Give him your broken heart to bind
It was for this he bled and died:
That he might make you whole
Cast your burden on the Lord and he will carry you home
He will attend you and defend through perils yet unknown
Put your unwavering trust in him
Christ, your constant heavenly friend
Has graven you in the palms of his hands
And never forsakes his own