Sunday, April 22, 2012


For a long time this song was my no1, and had become more than just worship to me it was a deep felt prayer.

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks your
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Hearts always hunger for.....

This is for a precious young lady that works for me. Ron, I want you to know that you are very loved and your faith and dedication to your friend is one of such pure "servant hood". May you find healing for your soul in this video.

Happy Rain

This is a short post to remind you to never give up on someone or a situation. Some prayers are only answered through prayer and fasting. When these prayers start to be answered, its as if really fat happy droplets of water are falling onto the situation . And it makes me so happy, filled with incredible joy. One of my prayers have been for a friend of mine who I have been been praying for a few years now. This beautiful song is for you my sweet friend.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Girls night out dilemma

I am going on a "girls night out" with a great friend of mine and its been a few days of serious dilemma. I haven't been out on the town for years and years and to be quite honest I haven't been sure of exactly how to go about this. You see, I am a mommy, and for the last 7 yrs have been in mommy mode. Yes, I have dressed up to go out to dinner with friends and with hubby, but "girls night out" has long been faded out of my memory.

Firstly were do we go? I am driving alone so having a few drinks and saying " home James", is not an option. Plus they always have road blocks near my neighbourhood. Then, what to wear? Now, if your a woman you know exactly what I am talking about. You gotta have the right outfit, and since I am a jeans and t-shirt person that just doesn't cut it! So, off to the shops I traipse and spend hours and hours looking at awful clothes. I find some great shoes and a stunning skirt and now I worry, oh hell, I don't want to look like mutton dressed as lamb.
Then my friend and I settle on a location, in fact a few in Kalk Bay. Brass bell for dinner, Cape to Cuba for a possible cocktail and then we might try Polanas. Polanas is a great day time spot and its so beautiful as its located right on the waters edge with the sea almost coming into the restaurant. ( In fact it has before!). As a night time spot its can be full of drunken guys looking to score, and good if your young and want to be picked up, or divorced and want to be picked up. Plus its smokers paradise. So, being a happily married non smoking woman its proberly not the best place for me to be. The last thing I want to be is hit on. My ego doesn't need a boost and my self esteem is okay!
But I am still super keen to get dressed up and have a great time whilst leaving my husband to baby sit.

Little black skirt, and super we come!

Similar bootie shoes to the ones I bought.

Friday, April 20, 2012

The wisest book on the earth

I think that the book of proverbs is the wisest "book" on earth.

The book of Proverbs was primarily written to young people and children to given them wisdom for daily living. This includes teaching them discretion to keep them from future trouble; the ability to make wise choices in the situations the find themselves in; to know what is right and what is wrong and to have good common sense.(except from Pastor Dee Harris. Wisdom for Daily Living 2).
But it is not just for the young, its for all of us, and every day we can learn from proverbs. There are 31 proverbs, each filled with amazing insight. The more I read proverbs the more I realise just how applicable it is for today's life.
I love reading proverbs from the Message Bible. Its  written in today's modern language and is very insightful.

Perhaps try reading proverbs 21 tomorrow and see if you learn anything from it. A long time ago I learnt that its better to live in alone in a tumbled down shack than share a mansion with a nagging spouse! Sound familar..Ouch!

Wondering if I should delete this blog?

I sat down with the aim of deleting this blog. A few things have happened lately and I started to feel that perhaps I share my feelings too much. I am sure you know how that feels and you just want to kick yourself for  sharing something personal. I thought perhaps I should be a bit more reserved and keep things to myself? And then the what if's started. What if this person or that person I know read my blog and what would they think about me? Heaven forbid that a guest would read this or a staff member. Why would a person want to share that they have BPD or their spiritual life is at an all time low? Besides its  been a while since I have been regularly posting and perhaps I am just wasting my time. Also, Facebook has taken over the world and I too have been taken up by it.

And then I read a few of my blog posts from the past. Some of the posts I had forgotten that I had even written them, and reading them was so real and emotive. Some were so funny that I actually laughed out loud, and some made my heart go out to the author as they were so raw. But that author is me! If I deleted this blog it would be as if I deleted part of me. A Facebook post can never compete with a blog post. Blogging is not sharing your last five minutes, its sharing part of you.

When I started blogging a few years ago, I was so excited when someone had read a post or made a comment. But now I am not writing for someone. I am writing for me, as I like to journal. I have a private journal that I am very good at writing in, Its a spiritual one that is between God and myself and that journal more than just a part of me, it is me!

So back to the topic at hand, to delete or to not to delete, that is the question! And the answer is no. I just need to blog more regularly.